Even though I know I do...sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be happy. Like I don't deserve to be treated with Kindness and respect. Sometimes I think that I don't deserve to be treated like I mean the world to someone, someone who isn't related to me and wasn't forced to be in my life. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve the world.

I'm so happy 98% of the time and I appreciate my life so much and I know that I really do have a fantastic life, but there are those moment where I just feel down. Where someone says something so nice to me or treats me with such a high level of respect and I have no idea how to respond to it.

I feel like a freak...and now I'm annoyed with myself ughh I'm going to sleep.