Food...

The best part of a meal is when you get to the last bite. You know it's all about to be over so you savor those last few bites, you make them count. Your brain has a discussion with your tongue and your taste buds agree on being extra sensitive so that you enjoy every single morsel. It's wonderful. I'm usually never disappointed by the last bite of food. Since I know that the end is near I can prepare myself for it, I make sure I'm ready and when it's over I'm satisfied.

Well there is just one exception to that, popcorn. Every single time I make a bag of popcorn in my room it seems like the end of the bag always finds a way to disappoint me. Unless I pour the popcorn out of the bag and put it in a bowl from the start, I'm left unsatisfied and feeling a little angry by the end.

Somehow I never see it coming. I'm preoccupied by something and my hand just keeps reaching in the bag with blind faith knowing that it'll come out filled with popped kernels. Until with no warning it comes back and there's not popped kernels in hand instead it's a half popped kernel that hurts your teeth when you bite it.

It's sad really, because popcorn is one of my favorite snacks and though it always leaves me feeling a little jaded I go back for more. I refuse to abandon my comfort food that has been with me for as long as I remember. I guess you can just call me a glutton for punishment.

Nicole 101 P2

I am an Enigma. I just learned that word a week ago, don't make fun, and I think it could be used to describe me. I confuse myself. But I do like a few things and there are somethings that I do know about myself that I'm going to try and list out.

I like candy. Sour cream and Cheddar chips. Swedish fish. Fried chicken and Watermelon with a side of black stereotypes. Pot stickers. Free food. Expensive food. Cheap food.

I love teddy bears especially one named Teddy and another named Wicked. I don't act my age, and I don't expect others to. I tell people that my favorite colors are Purple and blue but I think I like pink more than anything. I've cut my hair three times, each time it was shorter, every time I do it my self esteem raises a few notches.

Boys make me laugh. Cry. Yell. Angry. Happy. Girls annoy me. Keep me grounded. Remind me how much I hate competition.

My mom is wonderful and our similarities keep us constantly fighting but also quick to forgive and even quicker to tell the other how much we love them.

My dad is the one person in this world that can always keep me grounded no matter what.

My sister, is finally the role model I always needed her to be.

I'm finally the person that I've been wanting to be for a while. The cool thing about reaching goals is that you know that there is always another level that you can reach. You're never the best version of yourself, there is always something to improve. I want to keep improving myself and keep becoming better each year.

I love to feel alive. I try to do something that will give me a rush and make me feel full of life everyday. I'm falling in love with the wrong person, and it's okay.

I've learned how to make mistakes, more importantly I've learned how to pick myself up after. I've seen really beautiful things and very horrible things as well. I've learned that life is hard but you can't let it break you.

People say mean things when they're upset and recently I've learned that I'm surprisingly very forgiving of people in these situations when I'm the recipient of their anger.

I'm really happy. The happiest I've ever been in my life. Things aren't always perfect and in reality it rarely pans out the way that I plan but that's fine, in the end I'm still extremely happy and excited for life. I can't explain, God is great and life is wonderful.

Over and Out. Nik.

Chin up.

"So chin up and we'll drown a little slower."

"How will you know when it's right?"

"I think I'll know because it'll sound like home."

I will love you...

" I will love you as a drawer loves a secret compartment and as a secret compartment loves a secret, and as a secret loves to make a person gasp and as a gasping person loves a glass of brandy to calm their nerves and as a glass of brandy loves to shatter on the floor, and as the noise of glass shattering loves to make everyone else gasp, and as someone else gasping loves a nearby desk to lean against, even if leaning against it presses a lever that loves to open a drawer and reveal a secret compartment. I will love you until all such compartments are opened and discovered, and until all the secrets have you gasping into the world. I will love you until all the hearts and codes have been broken and until every anagram and egg has been unscrambled."

John Lennon

"When I was 5 years old my mother always told me that happiness was the key to life. When I went to school they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down "Happy" they told me that I didn't understand the assignment and I told them they didn't understand life."