Memories

I will never forget you

My distant friend

Ido

P.S....You barely know me and you knew exactly what video to tell me to watch to make my day....I love how God puts such amazing ppl in my life even if only for a short period of time.
P.S.S......We love you!!!!

Sickly beast

Sooooo today I'm pretty much the epitome of that really gross sick girl that's coughing all over the place and everyones like..are you ok while trying to keep there distance. I just took some Tylenol cold and sinus {nightime of course} so I'm sure I'll be out like a log in no time. Yesterday my friend and her boyfriend broke up and she was really upset to say the least. It made me upset that she let somebody break her and make her crumble like that I was trying to comfort her but after awhile my tough love cut in and I made her suck it up as mean as that sounds. I was really sad that she was hurting but I just couldn't let her allow a man who she only dated for a while break her spirits like that. It was so hard seeing her like that. I hope I never have to again.

You
MAKE
me
HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everything here is ok

simplicity..that's what life should be about. The simple things are what's really important in life and what's really beautiful. Like this picture it's my best friends feet...but those are my shoes and my jeans so it's like both of us...it's our favorite picture right now..it's makes us really happy.. simplicity. Today was the first day of classes and though I only had two classes it was so busy and hectic I felt like I never got a break...I ended up crashing for two hrs...I highly encourage daily naps =]. Me and my roommate stayed up and decorated our dorm last night..there are pictures every where and collages I'm not sure if I love it but it's ok so I won't ask her to change anything. It's just really busy and not simple enough I guess. I want to do so many things right now..sleep..workout..go to an art exhibit...drink..idk I confuse myself a lot. Especially when it comes to drinking because I've never been drunk before but it's something about drinking that makes me feel like I'm this huge rebel. Though I've only done it three times and I told my mom the first two times I still feel like I'm this idk badass. It's a dumb concept I know but like I said I confuse myself a lot with the way I feel and my emotions are just lame so I'm really trying to spend a lot of time in reflection. I need to spend some quality time with myself...because once I really know me it'll be easier for others to know me as well. Simplicity.

I've been walking in this same way

I like picture...pictures of random things like rain on a window. I like them because it makes me stop and find the beauty in simple things, it makes me take in the world around me and enjoy the things people might not see on a regular basis. I'm back at school now at it's going really great so far. I got to enjoy hanging out with Lindsey who is my only real friend at school. Don't get me wrong I hang out with a lot of people and am friends with bunches of people but...no one knows me like she does and it's good to have that one true friend away from home. I need that here...theres so many fake people and there is so much unnecessary drama it's just super great to not have to worry about that with her. "Sometimes when I'm sad I cry but then the sun comes out and makes me happy again" That's a quote that my friend put on my door last year and it really made my day every time I saw it. Now I have it hanging up on the back of my desk and it really makes me feel good every time I see it. I like being happy I like smiling and laughing. I don't like being sad but it happens sometimes..thats why I surround myself with people that make me smile and are happy. I love my friends and will be expounding on how ""super"" they are sometime later in these blogs. tomorrow I start classes hopefully it'll all go great.

I'll write it anyway

Soooooo, in a few hours my parents will be dropping me off to begin my second year of college....yes it's true I'm a sophomore now. It's really weird I must admit, I can't believe that my life is going by so fast....middle school...high school...now college. Darn before I know it I'm going to be out of school and I'm going to have to deal with the real world. Crap!!! Is this scary? A little bit...well actually it's really scary..getting older creeps me out...I'm odd like that. Anyways I'm trying to I don't know deal with this by blogging I guess I've always wanted to blog..but for some reasons just now I actually went out on a limb and created one. So welcome to my mind I promise to be honest and annoying...I swear to be true to you and share my feelings with you. I'm not sure if this will ever be read by anyone but I'll write it anyway. I'm reminded of song lyrics...I'll paraphrase...what If I build the house and a storm comes and knocks it down..build it anyway. So here I am writing anyway..please don't be confused by the little I can promise you this won't always be sunny and filled with sunshine. Sometimes I definitely have my emo moments.