Airplane rides
Reading books
Talks on the phone
Normal.
Walks through the park
No fear of being lost
Wiping the hair out of your eyes
Safe.
Tugging at the blankets
Hands over ears
Last tear shed over this same thing
Fighting.
Whispered words of affection
Thrown words of anger
Kissing on the bruises
Disfunction
Made up words
Bright colored walls
Silly faces
Baby.
Failed examples
Broken smiles
Only tainted love to give
Parenthood.
Late night plans
Secrets revealed
Lies wrapped in wedding vows
Divorce.
Life before you
Held only cracks in the pavement
You're the one that brought the Tidal wave.
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
The Funeral.
When the water fell from the sky I opened my windows
I put my hand into the space and caught the rain
It traced a path down my arms
And stopped at the base of my spine
You're mine it whispered softly
I'm yours it quietly reassured
As I floated upward to my destination
The silence was no longer so loud
My feet no longer held weight
My mind no longer thoughts
My lack of a heartbeat
For the third day In a row
A fear I no longer have to tow
I'm not sure what will happen to the others
But I can't even hear their screams
I'm lost in the air that's around me
And somehow without lungs, I can still breathe.
Thursday, May 29, 2014
The road to Luna
I drew a map from here to the moon
and left it on a bench
the instructions said only
"follow when you're lost"
When I lost myself I found my way by referencing the paper
It was still there
untouched
not bothered by the world
It's weird to think that I'm the only one to ever be lost
On my way I found a painting
Of a tree I've never seen
Yet on the side my name was etched
and encased in a heart
even when I didn't know it you loved me
I left the painting on the ground
and kept focused on the moon
If I'm ever going to find my way
I can't let my mind focus on you
The end came quicker than my mind could comprehend
And as I rounded that last windy bend
I stopped
This path was not my own
Nor was it drawn for me
And if lost was where happiness lived
Than being found just wasn't for me
So I turned around
retraced my steps
and sat down with the tree
no longer locked in a painting but surrounding me freely
I sat back on it's trunk and breathed in it's scent
Right here
Right now
everything else is gone and all that is here is here
and in the end
when I can't remember
what's up and what's down
What's before me or behind me
Nor which way I should go
I'll breath you in and remember
That there's nothing wrong with being lost...
and left it on a bench
the instructions said only
"follow when you're lost"
When I lost myself I found my way by referencing the paper
It was still there
untouched
not bothered by the world
It's weird to think that I'm the only one to ever be lost
On my way I found a painting
Of a tree I've never seen
Yet on the side my name was etched
and encased in a heart
even when I didn't know it you loved me
I left the painting on the ground
and kept focused on the moon
If I'm ever going to find my way
I can't let my mind focus on you
The end came quicker than my mind could comprehend
And as I rounded that last windy bend
I stopped
This path was not my own
Nor was it drawn for me
And if lost was where happiness lived
Than being found just wasn't for me
So I turned around
retraced my steps
and sat down with the tree
no longer locked in a painting but surrounding me freely
I sat back on it's trunk and breathed in it's scent
Right here
Right now
everything else is gone and all that is here is here
and in the end
when I can't remember
what's up and what's down
What's before me or behind me
Nor which way I should go
I'll breath you in and remember
That there's nothing wrong with being lost...
Friday, February 21, 2014
The responsibility of youth.
I've got tons of loose change
And not a single jar to put it in
Dollars for days
But no concrete dreams to devote them too
Ideas in my brains
Pitching tents cause they know they'll never leave my mind
covered in dust
the shiny ones developing rust
never spoken, only dreamed.
My teachers said I had potential
All my chances lined up on a shelf
but I just sit here in this run down town
wishing for the things
That I have the ability to give myself.
I'm a lazy
bad excuse for a young person in an old world
Full of "what ifs" and "could have beens"
surrounded by opportunities and open doors.
They say to me "this world is yours."
Here's your chance to take
But I just hand it back to them thinking...
What if I don't want it?
And not a single jar to put it in
Dollars for days
But no concrete dreams to devote them too
Ideas in my brains
Pitching tents cause they know they'll never leave my mind
covered in dust
the shiny ones developing rust
never spoken, only dreamed.
My teachers said I had potential
All my chances lined up on a shelf
but I just sit here in this run down town
wishing for the things
That I have the ability to give myself.
I'm a lazy
bad excuse for a young person in an old world
Full of "what ifs" and "could have beens"
surrounded by opportunities and open doors.
They say to me "this world is yours."
Here's your chance to take
But I just hand it back to them thinking...
What if I don't want it?
Monday, February 17, 2014
Hats off to the complacent.
If I had all the money in the whole world
I'd put it in a jar
The jar would be lined with our transgressions
and sealed with our sins.
The letter I'd attach to it
would hold all the secrets we've told
with your anger as the punctuation
and my sadness as the closing.
I wouldn't put the jar into the ocean
or a river
or lake
Instead, I'd place it in a hole.
When I was little my friends would say
"lets dig a hole to China"
and even though we knew it wasn't logical
we always tried.
So just like the illogical
We tried to defy reality
and just like the hole to Asia
things never lined up.
So cheers to the complacent
the content
and the satisfied.
Hats off to the ones who always thought we were fine
Because fine we were not
and together we shouldn't be
and alone with myself is the best place for me.
non complacent, unsatisfied and not content with mediocre love
because out of all the things in the world that are plain
love should always eliminate even the darkest shades of grey.
I'd put it in a jar
The jar would be lined with our transgressions
and sealed with our sins.
The letter I'd attach to it
would hold all the secrets we've told
with your anger as the punctuation
and my sadness as the closing.
I wouldn't put the jar into the ocean
or a river
or lake
Instead, I'd place it in a hole.
When I was little my friends would say
"lets dig a hole to China"
and even though we knew it wasn't logical
we always tried.
So just like the illogical
We tried to defy reality
and just like the hole to Asia
things never lined up.
So cheers to the complacent
the content
and the satisfied.
Hats off to the ones who always thought we were fine
Because fine we were not
and together we shouldn't be
and alone with myself is the best place for me.
non complacent, unsatisfied and not content with mediocre love
because out of all the things in the world that are plain
love should always eliminate even the darkest shades of grey.
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
And maybe love is the reason why...
If the sun ever forgets to rise and tell you that you're beautiful.
That you're loved.
I'll whisper it in the wind so that it never leaves your ears.
That you're loved.
I'll whisper it in the wind so that it never leaves your ears.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
From the mouth of trees.
I believe in you.
When I think of the genetics that formed your DNA and the skin protecting your muscles as they grasp your bones, I smile.
You're so perfect.
I promise to always remind you of how hard you are to put into words. I'll always stutter over myself when you're concerned...that I've come to terms with.
You're almost too much for me. Too much to take in. You're the letter A and Z at the same time, it all starts and ends with you. I tried to fill in the center with 24 other letters but they always seemed to be in the wrong order.
You're the number Pi. Except I like to think you start with 4, just because.
I once had a conversation with a tree and it was all centered around you. The tree told me to run and tell you my thoughts, I asked him to do it instead. He was firmly rooted in the idea that it wasn't his place.
Books tell me that certain ideas are meant to be shared while others are destined to live only in brains and journals. I'm convinced that you're neither of those because I've written about you in every book and wrapped every thought around you and put you into the ears of anyone that would listen.
I'm consumed by you, which some say isn't healthy. But I'm firmly tied to the idea that not every vice is an addiction.
You're my muse.
You're the rose colored glasses from which I view the world. I do everything with you in mind.
I pray that I never have to live in a world where you don't exist.
Jesus Christ...even your name gives me chills.
You're everything.
When I think of the genetics that formed your DNA and the skin protecting your muscles as they grasp your bones, I smile.
You're so perfect.
I promise to always remind you of how hard you are to put into words. I'll always stutter over myself when you're concerned...that I've come to terms with.
You're almost too much for me. Too much to take in. You're the letter A and Z at the same time, it all starts and ends with you. I tried to fill in the center with 24 other letters but they always seemed to be in the wrong order.
You're the number Pi. Except I like to think you start with 4, just because.
I once had a conversation with a tree and it was all centered around you. The tree told me to run and tell you my thoughts, I asked him to do it instead. He was firmly rooted in the idea that it wasn't his place.
Books tell me that certain ideas are meant to be shared while others are destined to live only in brains and journals. I'm convinced that you're neither of those because I've written about you in every book and wrapped every thought around you and put you into the ears of anyone that would listen.
I'm consumed by you, which some say isn't healthy. But I'm firmly tied to the idea that not every vice is an addiction.
You're my muse.
You're the rose colored glasses from which I view the world. I do everything with you in mind.
I pray that I never have to live in a world where you don't exist.
Jesus Christ...even your name gives me chills.
You're everything.
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